TTC update & Linky Love

I'm sorry. This was a bit of a tease. There is no update. There is no ttc right now, because guess who has gone missing? Skipped town, AWOL, not to be seen anywhere. That old bitch.

I know I should be kinder, more gentle to my body, but every day that ticks by without a sign of my cycle starting a new is another day I am in m/c limbo. I went to acupuncture today and had 13 needles in various points to realign my whacked-out chi for an hour, with the intention of "returning the flow." My acupuncturist looked at my tongue and felt my pulses and said with confidence, "Oh yeah. Any day now." But I feel nothing. No sore tatas, no backache, no extra-special zit.

Although, I have to say that if I learned anything from the m/c it was that I don't know my body very well. Not only was I utterly convinced I was not pregnant from the day after the IUI, but even in retrospect I had no identifiable symptoms. MAYBE, just maybe some uterine twinges, but I chalked them up to the wired effects of progesterone and they may well have been. NO tender tits, NO weird dreams, NO fatigue, food cravings, enhanced sense of smell, NO nothing. Maybe I am not being fair. Maybe I am one of those women who gets no symptoms at all in early pregnancy, which means all those tww mind games are less than meaningless to me.

So maybe I am about to bleed after all. Maybe. In the meantime I have received a very big envelope from Aetna saying thanks very much for your appeal, but because you are in a same-sex couple, we categorically deny you. Period.

I can appeal again, for an "independent review" (and I will), but no part of me believes that the review is in fact independent or that the results will be any different. Speedy & I are lucky that we can go out of pocket for this stuff, but it makes me feel slightly desperate for it to work sooner rather than later. Alas, there's no logical wrangling to be had with my uterus and what it does or does not decide to grow.

There's so much good news in blogland lately. I am so happy for everyone. Libberal's journey has commenced. Poppy is out of the worrisome first trimester. Ruby is all geared up for IVF (covered by insurance, whoo-hoo!) Cindyhoo has five fab ferties. And Tireegal got a a double dose of lucky and happy, and Adventures in is for a big adventure. Trust me, there is more good news to go around and I just wanted to wish everyone the best. I've also got my fingers crossed for Robbie & Trina whose post-IVF ride has been a bit of a roller coaster, but looking good.

I really, really want to jump back in there with everyone. But first: tomorrow I am making lemon cheesecake for Speedymom's 83rd birthday. So, for now it's just more food posts. I'll let y'all know when and if that bitch comes back to town. Meanwhile I'll try to get Speedy to take video of me zesting lemons and creaming cream cheese.